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I just have to start off and say that I hate the blogging part.  I feel like I never have anything wonderful to say or how to write it.  But, I realize that this is for me and no one HAS to read it, right?!  Well, it’s been 12 days since I’ve started back and I feel like it’s just been blah, Blah, BLAH!  I have been walking, although not everyday, but at least I have been doing something.  I forgot to wear my knee brace the last time I walked.  Yea, I thought I’d be fine….and my knee has been killing me ever since.  SO…now I’m having a hard time wanting to go again.  I’ll bite the bullet and walk tomorrow (with the brace).  I bet I won’t forget it again!  I’ve started watching the show “Dance your @** off”.  When I first heard about the show I was like NO WAY…How stupid!  But I have to say, it has been so fun to watch and I am so very impressed that these people are out there moving their bodies in ways you wouldn’t think an overweight person could!  I told my 13 year old daughter tonight while watching the show that thats what I should be doing…dancing like a crazy woman for an hour in the livingroom…lol!!!  She was so for it…we’ll see what my boys say after they see Mom dancing…well, I don’t think you could really call what I’d probably be doing dancing.  hehe  Hey, I did dance in the party scene of my daughter’s ballet company’s production of “The Nutcracker” with my hubby last year!!!  It about killed me but it was fun!  When I first heard about the show I couldn’t believe what the network decided to call it.  But after watching the first show I remembered what I heard someone say one time about people’s bottoms.  When you’re overweight, you have an @**, and when you’re not it’s a butt.  I don’t think I have either!  haha  I need a butt!  Oh well, maybe one day!  So I hope to be better the rest of the week with my exercise and my eating.  I have to stop drinking my sodas and get more water in…and stop snacking so much.  Grrr….why is getting started so hard?!!!  Maybe I should just pretend like I’m already in the middle and then things will pick up….Hmmm, I’ve never thought of that before.  hehe

After 2 years of opening my BuddySlim account, and then forgetting about it…I’m starting over!  I have gained more weight since I’ve started.  So that means I’m 2 pounds away from my highest weight ever.  That stinks!  Today is a new day, a new start!  I’m going to Dick’s Sports and buying my favorite walking socks and I’m walking TODAY!  I am just going to take it slow and one day at a time. 

I don’t have time to write, my son just called to pick him up from wrestling practice but I’ve lost 5 lbs!!!!!!  I thought I was about to cry when I saw that 4 on the scale.  I seem to stay in the 250’s for the longest time.  A few months ago i was in the 240’s but that didn’t last long.  But, this is a different story!  Thank you to all of you out there that have sent me support this past week!  Look out mini goal….HERE I COME!!!!!! 

I’ve had such a busy weekend that I haven’t been able to get on to write.  I just have to say that I am so happy with my self.  Saturday I went for a walk.  I really didn’t have any plans as to where I was going or how far, I was just going to walk and at a good pace.  I ended up walking 3 miles in an hour.  I felt really energized and was pleased the whole rest of the day,  so that helped me with not over eating.  Then Sunday evening I asked my husband if he wanted to go walk with me and we ended up walking 3 1/4 miles in an hour!  I added a fourth of a mile and I did it without adding time!  YEAH!!!  Last night we went to the dollar movie and saw Balls of Fury…funny but glad I didn’t pay full price to see it…lol…and I did well while I was there.  I had some popcorn, and a little  bit of twizzlers…b/c I can’t watch a movie without something, lol.  So my little bit of popcorn satisfied me as to not having any at all and then splurging somewhere else.  And I picked twizzlers b/c they are sweet and also low in fat.  After we got home and read a little with the kids and got them off to bed, I was ready to go to bed myself when my husband asked me that horrible question, “Are you going walking tonight?”  Oh man!  Do I have to?  It’s almost 10:30pm…no, I’m not going tonight.  He then stated that he was going to walk since he felt better after our walk the night before.  Wwelllllllllll, I couldn’t let him walk and I not walk…so I walked!  We walked our 3 1/4 miles and took right at an hour.  When we came in from our walk we realized we didn’t listen to our phone messages and low and behold, I have a doctor’s appointment that I forgot about.  I suffer from high blood pressure and I go to the Dr. every 6 months for my check up.  I got up this morning to get ready for my Dr’s appointment when I realized that I HAVE TO WEIGH TODAY and I DON’T WANT TO!!!!  I wanted my weigh in days to be on Thursday’s since that’s when I signed up and got started with all of this.  So since I’m going to have to weigh at the Dr’s office then I’ll bit the bullet and go ahead and weigh at home so I can compare scales and make sure my scale is working right.  And it is…..I LOST 3 POUNDS!!!!!!  Both scales confirmed it!  So I am happy and it has helped me to “want” to go walking tonight, even though it’s getting pretty cold and my legs are hurting a bit!  But, no pain NO MORE GAIN!!!!  lol   

     I can’t believe that I actually did it!  I woke up early this morning, even though my kids are out of school today and I could have slept in.  But I didn’t.  I got up, brushed my teeth, put my hair in a ponytail and strapped on two bras and two knee braces and went to the GYM!  Yeah…It takes two bras to control these babies (while I’m exercising that is, can’t find a sports bra that big) and two knee braces to support my poor aching knees…but I walked on the treadmill and even at a slight incline!!!  All I could think about while I was walking was I can’t wait for my boobs to go away and get smaller and my tummy too.  I also worked out a tiny bit on some other weight machines, but not too much because 1) I had no idea what I was doing and 2) I felt like I looked stupid, but that didn’t bother me as much as I thought it would and 3) I didn’t want to injure myself…lol  and 4) I didn’t want to over due it my first day.  I do want to go back.  I was surprised how good I felt while I was “working out”…wow, ME, working out!  And, to my surprise, I made an appointment for the trainer to evaluate me and get me going on my own work out schedule!  Man, where is this coming from, it is so unlike me.  But I like it!  It must be happening…I’m making changes!

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I want to thank all of you that left me comments on my first post.  You made me feel like I could really do this…thank you from the bottom of my heart.  You are already a great support to me!  And you inspire me as I read your posts and saw your profiles.

     So, my sister in-law from North Carolina introduced me to this site a few months ago because I was whinning that I needed to loose weight.  I was interested but did nothing about it until October 18th when I weighed and realized that my suspicions were right…I had gained 11 pounds!!!  I was not happy.  Those 11 pounds crept on too.  I had lost some weight several months ago and I had kept it off.  I wasn’t loosing anything else, but at least I was staying in the 240 range and not at my all time highest of 272.  I had to do something.  Make a change, start a plan…something.  Then I remembered my sister in-law’s request for me to join buddy slim.  I sat down that morning and started making my profile.  I was excited!  This was it, something that will help aid me in my attempt to loose this weight.  This will keep me motivated and make me accountable for my actions…or non-action.  haha      So a little each day I would work on my profile…man, it would take me forever…and then it wouldn’t save the work I had done…I couldn’t get the pictures I wanted on…I was getting a little frustrated.  I got my best friend to sign up too.  She’s been whinning about her weight gain too.  We would do this together…yea, this is great!  Then, I sat down tonight to finally make my 3rd attempt to write my “about me” and that’s when I realized that “Oh my Goodness!  It’s been a WHOLE WEEK since I’ve signed up on this thing!”  And, that I really haven’t started doing anything to get this weight off!  I was a little depressed…then I quickly changed my mood and thought, hey, it’s ok…I’ll go to the gym tomorrow because there will be no excuses for me to give up yet…not before I have really put forth some effort.  Right?  RIGHT!  I can do this…